Jaded

still addicted to the idea of you

lost and confused, i know not what to do

everyday an illusion of what was meant to be

distorting perceptions of a jaded reality

reminiscing the past invoking feelings sublime

only summons reminders that once you were mine

hard to endure this internal strife

harder to accept you've moved on w/ your life

fighting everyday to regain what was lost

losing the fray because it was you at cost

Us

i'm trying to understand what it is you want

i'm grieving for us because i know it's all gone

i cant see anyone the way i look at you

i refuse to believe anyone else is as true

you gave me a reason to believe in love

you had me trust that love was enough

you built me up only to break me down

you took it all and left me to drown

we had a future i thought we could pursue

we made promises i wished we could undo

we were happy getting lost in each other's eyes

we were blinded by love's relentless lies

I think too much, yet sometimes it's not enough. I start wondering, then I go wandering..but then it gets too rough. I ask myself questions of which piece goes with what. No more second guessing, yet the doubt still rises up. -6/24/07

Hollow

hollow me now,
inside and out.
space void of all else.
no emotion to dispel.
numb is pleasure,
all soon forgotten..
sanctuary is nowhere,
each crevice caved in.
the future dull,
the past a blur..
the present idle
the promise is over.